Hey Zenful Dancers, happy Sunday to you!
The other day it occurred to me how much my own net-worth was as a fellow New Yorker passer-by decided to flash me his $1,000,000 bill on the street. Of course I was opportunistic enough to grab proof as I don’t typically run with crowds who carry around this kind of cash much less waive it around in broad daylight as if begging to be mugged by anyone within a one mile radius of 14th Street.
And after Googling that there was in fact no one million dollar bill (Google saves the day once again- go ahead, make fun), I realized how profound carrying a reminder of this great proportion can be. A reminder that I walk around with my very own million bucks all the time and I so often forget that it’s there, burning a hole in my pocket; my own self-worth.
I am sometimes quick to bend or apologize or shy away from standing up for what’s right in order to avoid conflict or difficult conversations or actions not because it is uncomfortable for me to lean in- of course it IS uncomfortable- but because I forget that I have value. Conceit and self-centeredness jokes aside, I am rich with loving friends and family, rich with overall good health (barring any recent stress-induced sleep issues), rich with the understanding of love and my ability to be compassionate and to make decisions from a place of love instead of fear- when I remember, that is. Lately my life has seen more challenges and it seems I need more reminders. So in an effort to pull out my million dollar bill and waive it around as a “reminder to self”, I would like to share my riches with you:
I’m so grateful for a loving and supportive family who lets me do my best to love and support them back
I have incredible friends who check in even when they are too busy to check in
I have true love which is far more magnificent yet often quiet-and-unassuming while being simultaneously more terrifying (read: vulnerable) than I ever imagined it would be and I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world, not even for a real million dollar bill
I have the ability to dance like nobody’s watching and it provides me with endless inspiration
I have access to music that feeds my soul, no matter the day/mood/location/experience
I am grateful for a steady job that challenges me and provides the flexibility to manage my own time
Meditation. It keeps me grounded when I start to float away
I am very grateful for a healthy body and mind (hey we all have our “moments” but you know what I mean)
Compassion. I know what it is and I’m not afraid to use it
My sense of humor (bad timing and all) has gotten me through some of my darkest days and I continue to think I am by far more hilarious than anyone else thinks I am 🙂
Care to share some of your riches with me? Go ahead, SHOW ME THE MONEY! It might be just the reminder you need.
-Leah Joy, The Zenful Blogger